Heihachi Hayashida ga daisuki! ^_^

MOVING TO ANOTHER BLOG

2008-05-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

I'm moving to another blog. I guess this one turned out fine, but I've been tired of having to design my blog. Plus there had been some issues with cross-posting between Multiply and this blog. Hope to see you soon at a new, though I hope temporary, address:

http://kjerkemartijn.wordpress.com/

I will return to Blogger, but till then, read my posts here, OK? ^_-~sam

FOR JANIS :D

2008-01-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

Uber-simplified, at iningles para lang sa iyo. :D

1. Log on to the M site. :D
2. Open new tab/window and type in google.com
3. Type the keyword, whether artist/band name, or song title, or both.
4. After that, put a space, and type in site:multiply.com inurl:music
5. From the resulting page, highlight the green address at the bottom of the link of the site you want to visit. Paste it onto the address box of another browser window/tab.
There! You should already be at another user's Music page. Message me if there are any difficulties, okay? :D

A LITTLE GAME 1

2007-09-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

Na-inspire ako sa depensa ni Joey de Leon sa sarili niyang depensa sa Eat Bulaga, kaya eto, alam ko ang sagt dito, pero magbigay kayo ng iba nyong sagot, kahit hindi witty o humorous, okay lang:

Bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan...

SO LITTLE TIME

2007-09-02T14:16:00.000+08:00

Last Friday I was about to show up at the tambayan of the Math Club ready to drop the final message: see you next sem, y'all. I am deferring my application to the second semester. But an ordinary event threw my resolve to the other extreme, and now I am really fired up to continue the app process.

As I boarded the Pantranco jeepney to UP I saw the Korean professor also taking the same jepney as mine. And no, this is not about her. I looked in her direction and there was J, the batch head of batch N of org T. I immediately looked away. And immediately thought to myself, Damn, I just HAVE to be in the Math Club. I am proving to myself that I can do without those farking highnoses of T. I will do it. I MUST do it. DAMN. And there. I have estimated that the points I've accumulated so far won't add up to the limit required of us applicants, but I'm pushing through with it. Even if it means I face rejection in the end, just like what I've had with orgs T and A (I'm not bitter A rejected me; I've done little for them, and I wasn't serious with them anyway.). Still, I'm meeting Buddy Leslie on Monday to tally up my points. And I repeat, I'm pushing through with it even if my scores don't chalk up. THERE.

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And there. I finally am at peace with myself.

On another note, here are some books I've so far been wanting to read:

1. Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell by Susanna Clarke. Think Harry Potter in the adult, political, bureaucratic setting. Makes for a v interesting alternative to magical fiction.

2. By the River Piedra I sat down and wept by Paulo Coelho. I am just curious. I haven't read a single work of Coelho, and I wager if I'd start reading him I'd start with this one.

3. Pera Mo, palaguin mo! vols. 1 and 2 by Francisco J. Colayco. I have always been an admirer of Francisco Colayco. I always read his column in Bulgar whenever I get access to the tabloid (and no, I DON'T buy Bulgar, thank you very much). He is a v wise wealth manager. (Ooops, pardon me, my capitalist slip is showing. XD)

4. The Collected Short Stories of Fyodor Dostoevsky. I have access to this one; it's in the Main Library, only I don't have the time to read it.

5. ABNKKBSNPLAKo?!? by Bob Ong. I have read parts of it before, and now I want to delve into the book. And maybe some other Ong works, if I like it.

There. If you have any of these, please let me know. ^_^ In this age of visual entertainment, books are a forgotten pleasure, and I am not one to forget them.

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I felt quite embarassed(wait, was that a double 'r'?) when Sir Mandigma called on me to answer verbally the shape of 1 - sin (theta). It was discussed and was covered in the first exam. I knew the answer but wasn't sure of it, and after a long awkward silence he commented, Hindi mo alam? E naka-__ ka nung first exam ah. And DAMN, I did get a good grade on that one. He continued, hindi mo dapat kalimutan yung mga itinuro sa yo nung nakaraan.

The tiger inside of me was contemplating, E sa kasalanan ko ba na mukhang pinaghalo-halo na lang naman na mga loose ends ng topics in calculus ang Math 55, at mukha namang wala silang koneksyon sa isa't isa? I managed to let out a weak 'cardioid po', although I doubt if he heard it.

So much for studying hard. I'm still embarassed(wait, was that a double 'r'?).

NORMAL BLOG TEST POST

2007-08-27T15:56:00.001+08:00

This is to test the cross-posting connectivity between my Multiply and Blogger accounts. Thank you.

ONLY BELO TOUCHES MY SKIN

2007-08-27T11:29:00.000+08:00

[current LSS -- dinamayan by 6 cycle mind. it has a tune that eccentrically reminds me of church songs, even though it isn't very related. dunno why]

Who touches yours? XD Waha, di talaga ako maka-get over dun sa commercial na yun. Parang surreal kase, eh.

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And enough of depressing entries for the moment. Lately the mood of my posts has been depressing enough to push Dutch people to suicide. Before in my past blogs you could only count the angsty posts with the fingers of your right hand.

And I'm now trying to look at the cheerful side of things, me being the eternal optimist. The thought of deferral is a heavy one on my part, but I look at it as more free time to study harder to NOT forget my theorems in Math and Stat. XD And while I'm at it I might as well find myself a new job, this time a full-time account. If only I didn't already refuse the all too tempting Convergys offer of X a month... I would've already paid my tuition loan and got myself a PC. To think that I spent some time with the interviewer, and the contract was already in front of me. Maybe I'll apply once more.

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And I'm watching the Heroes Marathon on Channel 9 while waiting for the second season to be screened. I missed the earlier episodes and this is my chance to catch up. Funny, because I've watched the last half of season one. I know Peter Petrelli won't die. He has absorbed Claire's powers. It is only too sad that Nathan does. He is by far the coolest character for me, aside from Molly Walker. Hee.

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I've uploaded some new songs. Enjoy! ^_^

BOKU ANJITERU

2007-08-27T10:44:00.000+08:00

[current last song syndrome -- perhaps love by howl and j, a korean song]

Last Wednesday, despite being über-due, I managed to push through with my Stat 121 First Long Exam. One of the most irritating things happened during the exam. I KNEW I DID THE EXERCISE ON STATING AND PROVING BONFERRONI'S INEQUALITY. And it DID appear. Yet come exam time my memory faltered and though I was about twenty minutes early I spent the rest of the exam time thinking really hard. How could I forget? I misstated it in the end, and worse, I even TRIED to prove it. I laughed hard, trying to keep it to myself, on the way home. My fellow passengers must have thought me crazy. I may very well be.

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Friday night my glasses got crushed by my aunt walking beside my sprawled out lazy figure on the floor. It will take some time before they get fixed, considering the impecuneity that possesses all of my aura at the moment.

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Last Saturday I was supposed to 'emcee' the Freshman Math Quiz. I agreed to, and was all set out to, despite my limited capabilities and my stage fright. Last Saturday, however, everything that could go wrong DID. I woke up late, was not feeling quite well, made the mistake of boarding the wrong bus, and the gravest mistake, going to the Math Building, finding nothing there, and then proceeding to the MSI Auditorium only to find out that the first part of the program, the invocation, had already started. Allen agreed to emcee in my place.

Seeing the result of my irresponsibility my lungs tightened. I was anxious, and wanting of air. Add to that the loss of control over myself that I felt without my glasses. My condition worsened, and I knew I had to leave early, go home, and take some rest. And now I feel much better physically, but still rotten emotionally. I don't think the members will take to me kindly after what happened. There is one way to save my face. And that is to apologize, and then leave the application process.

And that is what the title of this post means. I'm pondering on some things.

POLL QUESTION 1

2007-08-18T10:10:00.000+08:00

Ano ang mas okey sa inyo, ang isang sistema na kung saan ipinagbabawal ipahayag ang anumang nasasaloob, o ang isang sistema na maaaring ipahayag anomang saloobin, pero walang makikinig?

GRATITUDE

2007-08-18T10:06:00.000+08:00

[Current LSS -- It's Going to Take Some Time by The Carpenters. How appropriate.]

For all of you who greeted me last Thursday, thank you very much. (For those who tried to greet me by SMS, please see 2 posts before this.) I even tried to change my birthday on my profile just to avoid being greeted. But you found me out. XD Daghang salamat Budz nga Anna Fegi. Mao kana si Buddy, ang akong buddy nga gwapa gyud. XD

But seriously the humdrum business of counting the years has already been way too much trouble for me. Now that I've reached 21 I feel it has become heavier, this burdening feeling of having accomplished so little in my life. Most of the '03 people in UP have already graduated, and where am I? Just shifted, and to count three more years before graduation. I can tell of several people who have already left me behind in terms of accomplishments. One orgmate is already a reporter at the Kapuso network. (Kung mabasa mo man to, J***, ang galing mo tsong! XD) One is already a Junior Management Trainee at a bank. Several have already found jobs in the private sector. Some are now enrolled in the College of Law. Further counting only brings me bad cheer. Oh fart. I'd hate to be a pessimist. I'm an optimist save for those rare moments of self-deprecation which will penetrate my systems for a few days. Now is not necessarily the time; I'm just reflecting on the situation that I'm in right now. The little tiger in me is once again waiting to be set dangerously loose.

But at least I now am where I truly want to be. This scenario is far from perfect, but it is only I who can change it.

ROBBER, ROBBER

2007-08-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

This is a repost of something I did November 2005, somewhere in my other blogs. I am deleting them to clear up my dashboard space.

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A batch of recently printed hundred-peso bills made its way into the hands of the Filipino masses. The notes misspelled the President's name, so that it read "Gloria Macapagal-Arrovo".

Haha. Right on. At least for some comic relief resbak the people have waited only so long for something like this. A hundred-peso bill misspelled. Critics say it sounds like the Spanish root word for robber, "robo". And it sounds like the Japanese term for robber, "dorobo". Haha. Right on.

Reminds me of a joke one time in which Imelda was reportedly speaking to the Japanese public. In an effort to relate to the r-tounged audience, she said a very impassionate line, "I rove tha Firipino pipor! I rove tha Firipins!"

So much for robbers. So much for hearing Japanese.

KABOCHA GA DAISUKINANDA

2007-08-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

The Goddess of Water has resigned to the fact that she, being a water goddess, would have to do without some of the things on dry earth that she fancied, fire being the first and foremost among them. She envied the warmth it brought to her senses. She'd spend an hour or two each year perched on a rock accesible only by a cavern in the faraway islands of Nereia, basking in the sun's abundance. A mortal who would happen to see her at this rare instance became gifted with the power to control water at will.

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[current LSS -- Voltes V ending song]

And yeah, after quite a while I've finally learned to let go of some things. Like the paper matériel and the obsession to lash out at org T. Hee. Time, cliche as it has always been, does heal wounds. (Aiyah, why am I making such a big fuss out of it, anyway? It was no big deal.) And it helps that there are some other things to be busy about, like the ACLE of the Union to be held tomorrow(witness my shameless pluggage! XD) and my UP Math Club application, not to mention busying myself with other, uh, pursuits. XD Like getting a 95+ on my Hapon 101.

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I watched IKON Asean on Channel 9 last Sunday. It was live. Almost the whole time the show was in Bahasa Malaya, and the only English input came from Dominic Lau. The only Bahasa words I understood were 'malam ini'(tonight) and dua,lima ribu dolar($25,000), the cash prize each for the band and solo winners. To tell the truth, I liked Jaclyn Victor(the Indonesian solo contender) and Judika(the Indonesian contender) Vina Morales(the Philippine solo contender, what the f*ck). The only saving grace that Vina had was that she sang 'Pangako sa 'Yo', a song that became a household staple in Malaysia and Indonesia with the acompanying telenovela of the same title. And she did some acrobatics on stage, something Indo pop heartthrob matinee idol Judika and the very prim and proper genre crooner Jaclyn Victor CAN'T do. And horror of horrors, SHE WON.

Of the bands, I, being a fan of the more mellow music, liked the mellow tunes of OAG(the Malaysian band contenders) and that of Tahta(Indonesian band contenders) than that of Kjwan(no intro needed). But when it came to the ROCK, I say Kjwan outdid the others. Great job, Kjwan! It's no wonder you won. :D

And that's where it's really queer. BOTH PHILIPPINE CONTENDERS ACTUALLY WON. Hee. I'll upload the pieces they sang on my account, possibly this weekend. :D

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Just in case you haven't been able to contact me by phone these past few days, it's because my phone's busted. I should be able to have it fixed probably this weekend. Any correpondences may be channeled through this multiply account(I don't check e-mail that much, and I barely check posts on my blogsite). Thank you.

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And don't ask me about tomorrow. And don't ask me what it is about tomorrow that I don't want to be asked about it. Tomorrow just like any other day of my life will be relegated into oblivion.

There are the naysayers. I get a lot of them, they float around in my head like some angel flying short of altitude. Sure, they have paralyzed the part of me that is lying around, idle. But what about that part of me that still struggles, giving up everything beyond comprehension?

There are the demons in my closet. They will, sooner or later, break out from their incarceration swift and mighty, and come take me and capture me and in turn avenge themselves for what sorry state I have imposed upon them. They will come for me, and my blood.

There are the questions left still unanswered. Maybe for lack of better philosophical analytic tools they will remain unanswered. They will remain unanswered, those questions of when, where, and what if. They will remain to make of me a less than whole person.

Don't ask me about tomorrow. Only the Lord knows what.

WRATH

2007-08-08T17:32:00.000+08:00

Forget the cheerful me a few hours ago. I am full of RAGE.

The recent spate of bad weather has left me in a foul humor lately, and just a half-hour ago it has turned me into a monster.

After a nice hour of internet to wash away the self-doubt bubbling up inside me due to a Stat 121 session this morning, I went home. I was even playing some music in my head on the bus home despite the atmospheric showers.

I headed home to find the neighborhood inundated knee-high. SHIT. I rushed home despite my weight and the bag I was carrying. My house was already flooded up to the ankle.

Heaven and earth collapsed upon me the moment I entered the house. THE box, MY box, which had been sitting quietly, perfectly still on the floor where I usually slept, was now soaked to the last sheet of everything it contained. It was just a flimsy Lucky Me! merchandise box, BUT IT CONTAINED ALMOST EVERYTHING I COULDN'T LET GO OF AND MOST OF MY WRITTEN MATERIAL SINCE HIGH SCHOOL. Good thing I had the wisdom to store my notebook journals in a higher place. But dear sweet Jesus, I THOUGHT THE NEWS SAID THERE WAS A DANGER OF DROUGHT in the coming months. I faltered.

The Masakatsu G. Kakuta is quite whipped up for the moment. Am angry. And sad. And I will be quite unsociable (except on the net) until probably Monday. Argh.

P.S. IMPORTANT: In my Multiply account I am setting all playlists to 'For Contacts Only'. This is to avoid being shut down. Thank you.

RANDOM THOUGHT PROCESS

2007-08-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

Scene from Heroes:

Ted(the radioactive guy): (brandishes his radioactive glowing hands)C'mon, what are they trying to do?
Bennett: (thinks in Japanese)
Parkman: (closing his eyes and trying to hear Bennett's thoughts)He's thinking in Japanese!
Ted: Dammit, why are you thinking in Japanese?!?

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The above situation teaches me something. I should develop the habit of thinking in Japanese. If someone who gets near me can read minds it will come in handy. XD
Just a random thought process.

THE WATER STRIDER

2007-08-04T15:05:00.000+08:00

Of all the land animals that the Water Goddess favored, no favor was more bestowed upon than the Water Strider. On rare occasions the Goddess was to be seen on land, she could be seen talking to the water strider and send it with official communiqués to the other three Goddesses. It is an insect that floats on water, and for that alone the Goddess found the Strider quite useful.

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Uwah. Sobrang tambak ng weekend na 'toh. Andaming kelangang gawin:
Stat 121: Problem Set due Tuesday. Paborito ko toh kaya oks lang.
Math 180.1: Assignment. Grabe magpa-homework si Ma'am Cando-Asuncion. Parang magdadalawang taon na mula nang nagMath 114 ako ah. Nakalimutan ko na nga halos eh. Sobrang matrabaho pa naman nito.
Math 162: Group quiz sa Lunes tungkol sa annuities at perpetuities. Yun ay kung makakagising ako ng maaga.
Intsik 11: Yay. Mas pahirapang intsik toh. XD

QUICK UPDATE

2007-07-25T21:38:00.001+08:00

I now have this feeling of energy I haven't felt in quite a while. Sure, my sleeping patterns have changed, as I wake up later than usual EVERYDAY, but then it doesn't matter to me. I only hope that it lasts for long. :D

And yeah, I am doing well so far in my studies. I just hope I get favorable test scores in Math 55 and a nice problem set grade in Math 180.1 tomorrow. :D

Btw already uploaded some nice songs. Budz, you should see the second to the last I uploaded. Dalawa na ngayon ang utang mong translation sa akin, hehehe... ;P

SINABAWANG GULAY

2007-07-23T17:50:00.000+08:00

No, seriously, everyone, I now LOVE that frickin' song... it's all because of the peeps at MC...

At nag-aaply ako sa Math Club ngayon. Magtataas ang kilay ng mga taong nakakakilala sa akin mula sa mga Pisay days ko. ALam nilang mahina ako sa matindihang math. At totoo naman yun. Ayoko ng math nung nasa Pisay pa lang ako. Pero nung nagMath 17 ako mga 4 na taon na ang nakakaraan alam ko sa sarili ko na magugustuhan ko rin ang Math. Mababa ang Grade ko sa 17, pero ok lang sa akin yun.

And, they look like people of the bourgeois type. So unlike me, but I'd prefer them over the upper class anytime, if only to avoid discomfort(this is not to be misconstrued -- I can handle being with the upper class, only that it is highly uncomfy). Hanging out with proletariats like me is one thing, and hanging out with math ~~nerds~~ enthusiasts is another, though. XD

Till here for now...

AM TOO OLD

2007-07-19T18:08:00.000+08:00

I think I'm too old to join yet another org, but the itch to just pulls at my pants(wait, that must be quite a wrong idiom, that. so wrong). Not that I wanted to abandon my current orgs for the moment, but now that I've changed my program I am not sure I can find the time to drop by. Am so sorry still.

Well, the week before this there was the AIESEC booth lying quite vulnerable at the AS walk, and so i thought to myself, "Why not?"

Some afterthought to all the commitments that joining AIESEC entailed, and now I am sure I am not joining it. At least not now, and not this year. I'd like to enumerate some of the reasons:

1) I don't think my person fits into such a lifestyle. Not that it's bad, but consider this logic: birds of the same feather flock together. Now consider the probability of finding someone of my own feather in AIESEC:jologs, impecunious, higher-society ignorant. The chances are close to nil. Not that I'm consciously stereotyping, too. I'm just UNconsciously stereotyping. XD

2) I'm at 24 units. Zut.

3) I would have loved to join AIESEC, but I made a promise to someone to join her Stat org if ever I got into Stat. So that'd be... next sem. :D AIESEC, if ever, could already be next year for me.

I forgot most of the reasons already.

ONCE EVERY

2007-07-13T09:19:00.000+08:00

THINK OF LAURA
Christopher Cross

Every once in a while I'd see her smile
And she'd turn my day around
A girl with those eyes
Could stare through the lies
And see what your heart was saying

Think of Laura but laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way
When you think of Laura laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way

A friend of a friend
A friend to the end
That's the kind of girl she was
Taken away so young
Taken away without a warning

I know you and you're here
In every day we live
I know her and she's here
I can feel her when I sing

Hey Laura, where are you now
Are you far away from here
I don't think so
I think you're here
Taking our tears away

The song above has no meaning to what I have to say right now. The song was meant to hide what I am about to write from the preview section. This post occurs once in a blue moon. It is a post about something I don't usually talk about, something that I usually don't bring up. But I'm fed up and want to banish the one ghost still lurking in my closet. Please bear with me should you decide to read this.

Yesterday I was rushing from the Stat building to my Chinese class on the fourth floor of the AS building. As I approached the lobby I looked up and saw E, a member of org H, the one org that I regretted I joined, or at least tried to join. Nearly two years ago they've booted me out at their deliberations, just when I was at the final stage. My batch, batch N, was inducted without me. For me they were the batch most close to me. To be frank, I enjoyed their company better than batch Alitaptap of UJP, or batch Tungkuran of ETC. When I learned I was removed from the batch during the deliberations, I was infuriated. I was bitter not only towards the members, but also towards the batch. My bitterness left me crying needlessly for weeks. Of course I cried alone, putting a cheerful facade when I am with others. I have gotten over it already, but it still haunts me, and I still am bitter towards them, except for Reg. (To Reg, I know you usually don't read my posts, but if you happen to read this, please forgive me.)

Back to the present. I was there, and thought for a second, Well, there's E. She was one of the friendliest in batch N. Maybe I should go and greet her. Maybe if I face her once again I'm not bitter already. Grave mistake. I went to the second floor, and since it was already nearing 6 in the evening, I saw the org T cleaning up. I remembered that it was their anniversary week this week, and that every Thursday of the anniv week they held their annual event K. I froze for a moment. I have exhausted all efforts in avoiding them. Now they were all congregated there. What the hell, I thought, I should act as if they weren't there. Putang ina nila. I approached E.

Kamusta? I asked, attempting a half-baked friendly smile.
Heto, pagod, she replied.
Wala akong pakialam kung pagod ka o hindi, I thought to myself. But seeing the forlorn look on her face left me wondering if she was still happy to be in the org.
Sige, me klase pa ako e. And walked away.

At my Chinese class I was restless. I was thinking about the org T, and started pitying myself. I was wallowing in my silent despair when Sir Merin called me to recite the new words. Punyeta. Kung kelan ako nage-emote dito saka ka naman tumatawag.

DIDN'T

2007-06-29T13:50:00.000+08:00

I sat on the bench
Whistling away, and to myself thinking,
Maybe there will come some, say,
redemption to all this abandoned by fate,
But you didn't come.

You didn't come,
And I had to ask anyone who'd listen, Why?
You didn't come, now all
I ever have are sounds

The whispers of the acacia,
The cicadas of the evening,
They call out to me
They in the solitary confines
Are souls like me battered and beaten thorough
Who, I cry out, will save me? Who?
No one but you can.

No one but you can.

But you didn't come.

JUDGMENT 2

2007-06-23T17:30:00.000+08:00

And when that day comes I shall not tremble
That one soft whisp'r to guide me through
When my Book of Days is open'd, and read,
The one wish I have is to be with you.

And when like a thief it comes at night
That one gentle tug to rouse me from slumb'r
When I am examin'd, and Judgment is pass'd,
The one wish I have is to be with you.

And when like the wind it blows me away
Heavens! My one little pray'r be your salvation,
When ev'rything breaks down and falls apart
The one wish I have is to be with you.

PRIORITIES

2007-06-23T17:12:00.000+08:00

[current LSS -- D-tecnoLife by UVERworld]

Even though I got virtually 24 units (18 registered + 6 sit-in) I know I still can find time for the things that matter, but in prioritizing things one usually has to give up a lot when one wants to do a lot of things. Sad fact, but we are only given 24 hours each a day to work and do other stuff.

Current Curricular and Extra-curricular Priorities (in order):
Stat 121
Math 55
Hapon 100-101
Math Electives
Intsik 10-11
UJP-UP
UP ETC

I really dunno.

NEW SURVEY

2007-06-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

[current LSS -- One More Angel by Paul Williams]

From Friendster post of Shiela Dollente. Miss you, sweetie! :D

1] Is there someone who you like at
> the moment?
> nah. have gotten over former crush. and am currently NOT looking. 24 units(18 registered + 6 sit-in) is hard work.

> 02] Have you ever given or been given
> roses..?
> hinde pa.
>
> 03] What is your all-time favorite
> romance movie?
> does not watch romance. have seen one, though, and it was for my Film 106 class. Spring Bears Love ata title nun.
>
> 04] How many times can you honestly
> say you've been in love?
> really, now. honestly, not yet. mada desu
>
> 05] Do you believe everyone has a
> soulmate?
> yah. there are just the people who can't find it, and there are people whose soulmates are of the same gender. i don't know who mine is, though. haven't found it yet.
>
> 06] Do you think that you should be
> friends first?
> should? nah. I believe love at first sight is possible. :D
>
> 07] Do you miss someone?
> - madami.
>
> 08] What do you think about long-
> distance relationships?
> doable, but v hard.
>
> 10] would you rather date someone
> older or younger?
> younger definitely. but if fancy is tickled will date someone older.
>
> 11] Have you ever seen a friend as
> more than a friend?
> hee...
>
> 12? doushite shitsumon ga nai?

> 13] How many kids do you want to
have?
> a dozen would be ideal...
>
> 14] Do you believe in "love at first
> sight"?
> see #6. true love, though, is an improbability.

>
> 15] Is love real?
> it depends upon how one defines it. see roland barthes'
>
> 16] Have you ever told someone you
> love them?
> uh, that's mostly family for me. no one outside, though.
>
> 17] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse--
---...i'm thinking green. will do subject to capacity. XD
>
>
> 18] What song do you want to hear at
> your wedding?
> 'Undying Admiration' by David Pomeranz, subject to change without prior notice.
>
> 19] Does somebody like you?
> i have a feeling someone does. and it's creeping me out.
>
> Repost as "Love Survey"
------> ayaw eh!

SURVEY REPOSTED

2007-06-19T17:47:00.000+08:00

Reposted from 15 November 2006. Walang magawa e...

Paano kung...

nalaman mong anak ka sa labas?
> me nalaman akong mas matindi pa jan haha. :D

nsa bus/lrt/mrt ka at siksikan sabay a person of
the opposite sex rubs a private part on you?
> ang babae hindi naman masyado nahahalata kapag private part na e...

a close friend ay biglang nagpropose sayo?
> syet, ang mga close friends ko? :D nagpapatawa ka ba?

ang aso ng syota mo ay nakagat ka at nalaman
mong nde injected ng anti rabies?
> ala pa akong syota, hehe

may napulot kang cellphone tapos sa ex pala ng
syota mo?
> ala pa nga akong syota, e....

may pari kang kapitbahay at nakita mong nag uwi
ng pokpok?
> hell, join in the fun! threesome! :P

kasama mo ang syota mo nang may magbigay sa
kanya ng flowers/gift?
> ala pa nga akong syota e... bakit ba ang kulit mo?

nasa classroom ka ng may biglang umutot pero
sayo nagtinginan lahat?
> "well try to deconstruct THAT!"

may nangaroling sa bahay nyo pero may mga suot
na alahas at may bodyguard?
> oh shet. haha

prof mo sa theology ay nakita mo sa isang
gaybar/nightclub?
> walang theology subject ang UP, thank you very much

isang gurang ay nagoffer sayo ng malaking halaga
for just one night out?
> depende kung gaano kalaki, haha

nakita mo ang sarili mo sa internet na inedit ang
mukha at nilagay sa isang katawang hubad?
> DATU!!!!!!!!!

may stalker kang bi at sineseduce ka?
> am highly open to that, haha

nilapitan ka ng holdaper pero payatot inuubo at
mukhang malnourished?
> haha syet, para saan pa't nag-aikido ako? :D

nalaman mo sa friend ng crush mo na may
pagnanasa ang crush mo sayo?
> HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ang bago mong syota ay napag alaman mong
buntis/nakabuntis a couple of moths back bago pa
naging kayo?
> let's see...

may nag hack ng friendster account mo at ginawa
itong katawatawa?
> magsign-up ng panibago. *laugh dies down a little*

nagyoyosi ka ng biglang may lumapit na madre at
naki puff?
> hindi ako nagyoyosi e. pero kung nagyoyosi ako RAKenROLL!!!

bibili ka ng damit sa mall at pagdating mo sa
counter ay nakita mo kaaway mo at pareho kayo
ng binili?
> isang malutong na SHIT! tapos uppercut, haha

isang artist na idolo mo ay lasing at kumatok sa
bahay nyo para makituloy?
> the iron is hot. haha

nanonood ka ng tv ng biglang lumabas si sadako
for real?
> UY SIS! TAGAL NA NUNG NILAGLAG KA NI DADDY SA BALON, AH! MUSZTA NA?

may natanggap kang toy bilang regalo sa
pasko?
> depende. kung adult toy yan, bakit hindi? haha... :D

nasa coffee shop ka ng may lumapit at nagpa
autograph dahil inakalang celebrity ka?
> OMGA do I look like Gary freaking Lising?!?!

ginagago ka lng ng survey na to?
> hahaha kanina pa. :D

THE EDSA POST

2007-06-19T16:30:00.000+08:00

(subtitle: the tao of everyday, billboards, etc.)

So here I am at the Computer Center, highly conscious of my typography, when someone from the past (from hereon in this post will be used to term a highly acid flashback of something I'm trying to forget, but with little success) came in, and her presence disturbed me. I don't want to remember her name, but it floats at the top of my consciousness. Czarina Jamig. I go back to concentrate on my typing this.

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Since I now live far from school I take at least two rides from our house to UP. I take a jeep from our house to Baclaran (actually from Coastal Mall somewhere farther, but as if it matters a lot). Then from there I take a bus to Philcoa, for three rides. Central, for two, then I walk towards my former college. (Former na oh! XD) Or inside UP, for that matter.

In the boredom of my everyday grind I either look outside the window (I take the bus at the southern end of the line, so I usually get a seat by the window) on ordinary days, or look at my notes every now and then if I have an exam on that day. More often it is the former. And I most of the time look up to the heavens, not to check the weather or to pray, but to look at billboards.

Yes, billboards, the very essence of pedestrian advertising. EDSA nowadays is not EDSA without the billboards. Sometimes urbane, sometimes mundane, sometimes downright hilarious, I am often on the lookout for these. Here are some of the more recent that have taken hold of my relatively short attention span:

-- the 'Mac Tonight' billboards of McDonald's. For some reason they just tickle my picky fancy. There's the moon, in shades, holding a sax, and smiling. I don't find it cute, but I like it for some reasons up to now I still can't explain.

-- the 'What's your color?' campaign of Bench, particularly the one after crossing the bridge from Guadalupe. That one is highly distracting; it leaves little to the imagination. XD

-- the 'Cake of the Month' of Red Ribbon, the one in front of Robinsons Galleria, updated regularly. How can they be so evil as to leave us penniless commuters with our mouths watering? They look oh so heavenly! XD

-- the 'What have you learned today?' campaign of Penshoppe, featuring Bamboo. I looked at it today and it reminded me of two things: my mom and my shifting. My mom LOVES the music of Bamboo. I like it, but not all of them, and not much(sorry Jam).

regarding my shifting, the sight of the Bamboo in Penshoppe ad reminded me of yesterday, in my Stat 121 (Probability Theory) class, when Ma'am Capistrano (surprisingly a favorite teacher of mine; you wouldn't understand) asked me why I shifted to Stat. Of course I couldn't tell her the PRIMARY reason; if she heard that she'll banish me to hell faster that I could say 'Probability'.

so why DID I shift to Stat? 1) No other college would accept me once they've skimmed through my ugly-as-hell transcript of records; 2) I wanted to enter the corporate sector, but I can't enter Econ or BA, and so I have no other alternative but Stat; 3) Now that I've had enough of forced writing and fieldwork I want to take a course that requires me to stay put inside a building; 4) Because even though Science has long despised me it is the only way I have known, and therefore I return to be sheltered under its wing; 5) Because I'd like to explore THE SCIENCE OF COLLECTING, ORGANIZING, ANALYZING, AND PRESENTING DATA. Sheesh. To tell the truth now that I've tried my hand at Statistics I can confidently say I like it better than Journ. And since I am near to invoking the Maximum Residency Rule I affirm that I will graduate with a degree in Statistics, thank you. :D

-- now where was I? oh, sorry for that. the 'What's your color?' ad, again by Bench. at the Mall of Asia, featuring Sam Concepcion. C'mon, let's admit it, he looks old enough to still be called a kid, ain't he?

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Well that's all for now. I am near to 2 hours already. I don't know if it's a good thing or bad, but I can easily post since the Stat building is near the Computer Center. XD Hee...

A PRESENT FROM ME TO ALL Ü

2007-06-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hey, since my birthday is around two months from now, I have a gift for you. :D

(And yeah, Datu, this one's already in your PC; I am thinking of something else for you, hee. :D)

INSTRUCTIONS

1. Go to http://www.mediamax.com/kjerkemartijn.

2. Download the file 'Fortune.exe' onto your PC, rename it into anything you like, whatever you fancy. :D

3. Click it, use it, enjoy! It's something given to you by the highly thoughtful Sam! ^_^ Yay! :D And don't forget to send a message on August 16 at 09063092107, heeheehee. :D

0. WO MEI YOU QIAN (subtitle: okane ga nai)

2007-06-15T17:10:00.000+08:00

I have so much to say, it's manic. But I have precious little time, so here goes:

1. I am now adjusting to life in Stat. I now see the School in a new perspective. I will+should+must be a good statistician. No, DAMN good statistician. :)

2. I plan to apply sa isang Stat org. (But I told you this one already.)

3. I am now fond of Bleach. I want an Ichigo Kurosaki plushie. Or Hitsugaya Toushiro chibi plushie. The one with a cute frowning face.

4. I can't catch Bleach on GMA 7 except on Wednesdays because of Intsik 10-11(see previous post). I plan on saving up for a CD player.

5. I like languages, but now I know how it feels like to learn a totally unfamiliar language. I just get confused. My tongue gets twisted at the end of every session. And my judgment of tones just got awry.

6. I now have this crazy idea of making friends from afar THE OLD-FASHIONED WAY: thru air-mail. No, not e-mail. And I think I should start with someone from my father's homeland. The better for practicing my Japanese composition. And after that maybe I'll look for someone living in Britain. XD

7. Tinanggap na ako ni Suwaki-sensei para magsit-in sa klase nya. Nung una hindi pumayag. Tapos nagmakaawa ako. Lumuhod. Humagulgol. Wa epek. ~~Plan 2 na ito, sabi ko sa sarili ko. Tumindig ako. Kumindat sa kanya. "Suwa-chan, <3 I will fulfill your deepest desires..." at humalinghing. Hinubad nang unti-unti ang t-shirt.~~ Kinumbinse ko pa rin siya. Pumayag na. Sabi nya, oo daw, basta (1)hindi ako male-l8, (2) hindi ako aabsent NI ISANG BESES, (3) kelangan by mid-sem naka 95 ako sa klase nya. OR ELSE.

8. I am a bit UNcomfy with my Math 55 this sem. I miss Sir Gino Velasco...

9. Terror ang prof ko sa Math 162. Andami nang nasira ang pangarap nang nagturo siya ng 50 series (Math 53, 54, 55), at SYET. Tapos sabi pa niya kapag 1st time nya magturo ng isang subject(na ganun nga ang kaso sa klase namin) talagang mahirap sa una. Pero lece. Hindi ako magda-drop. I'll pass it or die trying. At hindi ko isusulat name nya dito. Baka sa sobrang conceitedness nya makita nya name nya dito sa pamamagitan ng Google, hwekhwekhwek.

10. I still love Heihachi Hayashida, whatever you say.

11. I now am an hour and 22 minutes into this internet cafe, catching up on my multiply. For those of you who don't know it yet, I update this from my Blogger account and it automatically gets cross-posted. Just so you know, here's my address: http://kjerkemartijn.blogspot.com/

12. I won't be using the internet until next weekend. I will go on nerd mode. Still will drop by the College of MassComm sometime next week to catch up on the MassComm people, though.

13. My tummy hurts.

14. My tummy still hurts.

15. My tummy really, really hurts.

16. There were people who became my classmates again, after a long time (say, before I shifted to MassComm). Like Macky Manio from Chem 16. And some others. Heehee.

17. I wanna play Pokemon Sapphire again. And Final Fantasy 10. And Suikoden 3. And Kingdom Hearts 2. And so on. Anybody got a Gameboy Advance emulator? Or a PS2 perhaps?

18. All in all, this sem has started well. No, nice even. And I hope to make it as good as like this. I am not so much of a believer in fatalism (i.e., we are all here, leaves in the wind, blown by the wind wherever it wishes, now we're gone). I believe that I will make my own future. And I do it with whatever future God gives me. And I believe that God lets people select their own future from a set of pre-made situations. I will do the rest, then.

19. And I hope to not forget.

UPDATE 6 JULY 2007

2007-06-06T14:35:00.000+08:00

First of all, Happy Birthday to Dana, even though I received only a grunt for a greeting yesterday(you may be tired, harassed, timid, angsty, whatever; I understand, XD). Of course dear you were born partly to prove that middle children are perfect test cases in abnormal psychology, but that doesn't alter the fact that we love you with or without the Rorschach inkblot test validations. ^_^

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Second, to Jam, this site is PARTLY finished, and I AM improving the readability. For now, Multiply will do. :D Nga pala, sana makuha mo yun. At kelangang manlibre ka pag nakuha mo yun. Pero alam kong makukuha mo yun. Hayop ka sa galing eh. Kaya sigurado na akong ililibre mo ako. XD

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Third, this has been the BREEZIEST registration week I have ever gone through. I mean, less than two days and I'm already assessed! ^_^ And I even had the time to visit my former college(wuth no apparent purpose other than to dillydally) and wait (in vain) for a PE slot. And to top it all off the College Secretary wasn't a dragon as Lourdes Portus was. And I had a generalized concept of College Secretaries being dragons. XD

I haven't yet paid my tuition fee, being penniless right now. XD But at least I got all my subjects. Here they are:

Intsik 10-11 MTThF 5:30p-7:00p PH 430
Stat 121 MTh 4:00p-5:30p SS 103
Math 162 MTh 8:30a-10:00a MB 328
Math 180.1 MTh 10:00a-11:30a MB 329
Math 55 MTh 11:30a-1:00p MB 121

Kaya stalk mo na ako! XD

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Ay, grabe. Sobra. Pero hanggang dito na lang muna. XD Till next time! :D

BLOGSPOT LOOK UPDATE

2007-06-02T16:18:00.000+08:00

(This post is meant for my Blogspot audiences. If this was carried over to Multiply, please don't mind this one.)

I'm thinking of starting to make my own blogskin from scratch. From the moment I used Blogger I took skins from Blogskins.com and tweaked it to my own liking. Therefore this site is a little something under construction. Never mind the Rainy Days and MOndays theme, though. I didn't like it that much anyway.

FEELING

2007-05-26T17:57:00.000+08:00

I have a feeling Ma'am Lambino has an alter ego out there, materialized, running free, and oligarchic. His name is Raul. XD

UNIVERSITY INFORMATION SYSTEM

2007-05-21T12:08:00.000+08:00

At lece. Hindi ko talaga feel yung computerized registration system dito sa UP. At least, hindi yung BAGO. Bago nga mas ineff naman. Lece.

Pero eto na yung mga nakuha ko, ang ilan sa mga unang subject ko sa Statistics. :D

Math 162 MHR MTh 8:30a -- 10:00a
Math 180.1 MHU MTh 10:00a -- 11:30a
Intsik 10-11 MTHFZ MTThF 5:30p -- 7:00p

Tapos kukuha pa ako ng Math 55 saka Stat 121. Para naman 18 units na ako. :D

Hanggang dito na lang muna. Bye! XD

PARA KAY DATÜ

2007-05-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

KABIT
Gagong Rapper feat. Kyla

-verse1-

Kay sakit naman isipin na sa puso mo ako’y pangalawa sa tuwing makikita kitang kasama siya pinipikit ko aking mga mata at sa gabing kasama mo siya halos hindi ako makahinga kayakap ko ang bote ng tequila nagmumukmok sa ibabaw ng lamesa naghihintay haggang sumapit ang umaga ng muli kang makasama.

Ano ang ating lagay hindi mapalagay ako’y nasasaktan pag hawak mo kanyang kamay sa kanya ka sa tanghali akin sa gabi pagilas sa umaga wala kana sa tabi meron kahiti gusto kita na mapasaakin kung pwede lang ba sana sa kanya kita nakawin at lagi mong iisipin kung hindi ka para sa akin magmula pang salimutin na ikaw mahal ko rin.

-chorus-

Sa puso koy nag-iisa kahit merong iba kahit hindi tama ang ginagawa sinta basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya. At wag ng mangamba kahit sabihin na kalimutan ka di ko to makakaya basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya

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It really hurts ang magmahal ng ganito kung sino pang pinili ko hindi makuha ng buo haggang ganun na lang nga kailangan ko itong taggapin sa puso mo meron na ngang iba umaangkin at alam ko na rin na mayroon nagmamayari sa pag ibig sa iyo ako itong nakikihati at ano man ang mangyari hindi ko kayang manumbat at kahit pailihin mo ako sa lahat gaano man kabigat sa puso ko itong aminin hindi dadaing wag ka lang mawawalay sa akin masakit man na isipin na ako ang naghihiramkaya pinasya mo na huwag na ngang ipaalam at hindi ko tama sumugal kahit pa nga alam kong mayiba kang mahal binigay ko ang lahat kahit ito ang natamo sa pag-ibig nang iba ako ngayon nakikisalo

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Sa situwasyon natin ito hindi ko alam san tutungo alam ko pag mahirap pag mali pero mahirap rin isuko paano ko masusuot sing sing sayo na dala, kung sa paglalagyan nito meron na pa lang na una ng makilala mo ako di ko binalak mang-gulo gusto ko lang mapatunayan na ika’y mahal ko, yung binuo yung buhay ko sa mga na-una na saglit kahit ang tawag nga sa akin dihamak na kabit.
Oo nga ikaw sa akin at ako ay sa iyo, at ikaw din sa kanya at siya din sa iyo, yun ay aking tinanggap para makasama ka lang pero sa ng wag sabihin pa na kasama ka lang para sa narin wag na tayong dumating diyan tiisin ko ang lahat ke sana wag lang yan at kahit alam kong mahirap tanggapin na mas na una siya sa iyo kesa sa akin

(repeat chorus)

CURRENT LSS 4

2007-05-20T17:38:00.000+08:00

UPSIDE DOWN
6 Cycle Mind

I’ve been spending some time, thinking i’d be alright
Don’t know if I could really make it tonight
Lie awake in the dark, come down then I start
Thinking about you is almost breaking my heart

I don’t know where I went wrong, or what’s going on
Baby, I fell like our love’s lost tonight
Should I stay, should I go? Well, I really don’t know
Lately I’ve been missing you so

[refrain]
Baby, you don’t understand our love lies lost
But you’re still holding my hand
Oh and then you walk away
Just tonight, I want you to stay

[chorus]
You’re turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down

Everytime I hurt you, well it’s hurting me too
Don’t know if I could really stay here tonight
Tired of thinking of you, I never think that you do
Tell me what am I supposed to do

Well, I just wanted to say that I need you today
Tell me it’s all gonna work out alright
I don’t know where I should I start
But with all of my heart
Baby let me be your lover tonight

[repeat refrain and chorus]

Oh you know, you turn me upside down
You know, you turn me upside down

[repeat chorus]

TUGON KAY NINONG

2007-05-16T10:16:00.000+08:00

Pasensya na Ninong. Kaisa ako sa hanay ng naghihirap na MASAng Pilipino. Sobrang marginalized ko na sa lipunang ito, dapat na akong magtatag ng sarili kong party-list. Tatawagin ko itong Masarap Ako (Masakatsu Kakuta, Ragged, Agonizing, and Poor for Altruism, Knowledge, and Order). Wahahahaha.

1. Gusto ko rin ng Sony PSP, lalung-lalo na ang Nintendo DS. Mas maraming magagandang RPG kase ang nalalaro sa DS. Hindi ako realtime gamer e. XD

11. Gusto ko rin ng 2 GB, kaya lang MP3 player naman. Tutal mukha ka namang kongresista mayaman ka, malamang. XD

13. Lalung-lalo namang gusto ko ng PS2. Dapat me kasama na ring Final Fantasy 10, kahit parang nalaro na ata ng buong bayan toh.

14. Di ako mahilig sa litrato. palagi kase akong panget, e. Siguro naging camwhore ka na mula noong huli kitang nakita, hwekhwekhwekhwekhwekhwekhwek

at panghuli, masyadong pang-techie ang mga hiling mo, Ninong. Tingin ko kaya mo namang mag-Laplace, Fourier at Solution by Inspection nang walang tulong ng teknolohiya, di ba? kayang-kaya mo naman yan. elibs na elibs nga ako sa yo, eh. :D

p.s. Kung me Multiply account ka, i-add mo naman ako sa http://kjerkemartijn.multiply.com/, salamat. Mabuhay ang hanay ng MASAng Pililpino! XD

JIGOKU E IKINASAI

2007-05-16T09:48:00.000+08:00

[song of the moment -- Happy Birthday by Itchyworms, dedicated to ChairOligochaete Jam Sisante. Happy Birthday, Chair! ^_^]

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I'd like to flame at someone, just so I can release all the pent up aggressive energy in me against my identified enemies, but on second thought, maybe not now. It is not over yet.

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I dunno if I like it, but something tells me I can't enter the School of Statistics. Not with my poor grades. If something like that happens I could end up being dishonorably dismissed from UP. But if I can pull a few strings that I have I might end up in one of the Colleges that I never imagined myself in -- the National College of Public Administration and Governance.

Good grief. And to think that politics in the Philippines transcends faith, ethnicity, and blood relations. News of private armies in Abra and Mindanao are reported even before the election period. Competition gets fierce, especially in the Lanao and Cotabato provinces. When you look at it some members in a political clan turn against each other, as in the case of a family in Mambajao, Camiguin. There truly is a wonder that exists in the Philippines. It is called election.

Jigoku e ikanakute mo ii. Jigoku wa koko da.

KIAMPENG À LA SAM

2007-05-06T18:19:00.000+08:00

Mga Sangkap:

3 t bahaw(kung walang bahaw palamigin ang bagong saing), dinurog
3 K mantika
5 K bawang, tinadtad nang pino
5 K sibuyas, tinadtad
1 k asin
2 pampalasa tulad ng Ajinomoto o Maggi Magic Sarap
1 k betsin
suka
toyo/patis
3 itlog, binati
hibe, luto
2 t hiniwang hamon intsik, hiniwa (kung gusto)
2 t skinless longganisa, hiniwa (kung gusto)

Pagluluto:
1. Painitin ang mantika at igisa ang bawang at sibuyas.
2. Idagdag ang bahaw. Lutuin nang mabuti para painitin ang bahaw.
3. Ibuhos ang binating mantika sa niluluto at mabilis na haluin.
4. Kapag namuo na ang itlog sa sinasangag ihalo ang asin, betsin, pampalasa, hibe, hamon at longganisa. Lagyan din ng toyo kung gusto ng brown na sinangag, o ng patis.
5. Dagdagan ng suka ayon sa panlasa. Hanguin.

ANG MANUNULAT, AT AKO

2007-05-06T16:26:00.000+08:00

[song of the moment -- Don't Let It End by Styx]

Nasaan ako? tanong ko sa sarili. Kahit hindi ko tingnan ay alam kong lubog ang mga paa ko sa tubig. Malamig na tubig. Gumuhit ang hilakbot sa buo kong katauhan. May darating. May dumarating.

Sinuyod ng dalawa kong mata ang nasa harapan ko. Kawalan. Maulap na langit sa itaas, tubig sa ibaba. Ni hindi man lang umaaraw. Maliban doon, wala nang iba pa. Kawalan.

Nang biglang may naramdaman ako. May tao sa likod ko. Tumalikod ako, at nakita ko Ang Manunulat, na nanlilimahid sa gula-gulanit niyang damit, at nakadapa sa harap ko. Lumuha Ang Manunulat, may hikbi na dumudurog sa puso ko sa bawat sandaling maririnig ko.

Pakiusap, itigil mo na ang pag-iyak, Manunulat ko, naisip ko. Ano'ng nangyari sa iyo?

Patawad. Ginawa ko ang lahat. Ngayong pinili mong tahakin ang ibang landas, hindi na tayo maaaring maging isa.

Patawad din. Naipit lang ako sa magkakaibang panahon at pagkakataon. Tumayo ka.

Pinilit ng Manunulat na tumayo. Ang mukha niya ay tulad ng sa akin, malungkot. Iniabot ko ang kanang kamay ko sa kanya. Inilapit niya ito sa kanyang mukha, upang patigilin ang luha. Ninais kong pahirin ang pag-agos sa kanyang mga pisngi.

Hayaan mong umagos ang mga ito, ang wika sa akin ng Manunulat. Ito ay para sa paghihintay, sapagkat maghihintay ako hanggang sa dumating ang araw na matagpuan mo akong muli sa puso mo. Ipangako mong hanggang sa magkita tayong muli mananatili kang totoo sa sarili mo.

Pangako.

BRINE SOLUTION

2007-04-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

Okay.

The simple solution to my worry, which I mentioned in my last post, is the willingness to make time for something. Something like dropping by even if it's out of my way. Something like the initiative to volunteer my help. Something like that to help the Union in my own way. :D And I think I will do just that this coming 1st semester. :D

Time and again I have proven to myself that it is only I who can work my way out of the giant labyrinth of my mind. There are problems that arise, and then there are self-made problems. I get lost more often in the latter. What arises as a problem is usually not a problem but a by-product of my own worrying about my projected image, the thing that I said moments ago, the future, etc.

Like, for example this summer. The greenhouse gases have been increasingly making their presence felt. Look, a few summers ago it wasn't as much of a scorcher as it is now. In high school we had a subject called Environmental Science, and I know those gases, the mechanisms by which they act, and so on and so forth. I didn't mind those; En Sci was just a subject I needed to pass. But now these truths come back to haunt me.

Take this simple test. Get a sheet of plastic cover, and grease it uniformly with petroleum jelly. Hang it outside your house and leave for three days. Then cut some random 1-inch squares. You get to judge for yourself the pollution that is generated and flies just outside your house. Your nose may need some more house cleanin'. XP

But here for now. Still have to study my Elementary Differential Equations...

JAPANESE CORNY MAY LUTO

2007-04-14T14:00:00.000+08:00

And congratulations are in order to Glads (who's been ever quiet since the end of the 2nd sem, awfully quiet) for making it to the Agence France Presse practicum. I know you will imPRESSE the FRANCE people in the AGENCE. XDDDD

Now speaking of buddies, I realize I haven't had any. I mean the one who's the applicant and stuff. I think it's because ever since I became a member of the Union my appearances in the tambayan appear to be sporadic. Proof was when Rach pointed me out in the GA to decide on Weng's position. I appeared even fewer times when I became non-major. And now that I'll be in some other college I'll appear close to never. I'm nowhere near to even thinking of quitting my membership, but there are times when I feel my schedule has left me useless to UJP-UP. And to be honest, I'm joining an org in the college where I'll be shifting. It's to establish myself in the college I'll be making my home base, to meet new friends and colleagues in the profession-to-be. I did that before when I joined the Union. But now I don't see myself being a journalist, although the principles of the struggle for societal change are still in me.

It's not like me to be this sentimental. I just feel inutile to the org, that's all.

CHIPPER

2007-04-13T20:03:00.000+08:00

[current LSS -- Ikaw Lamang by Silent Sanctuary. the video is cute]

Ano ba ang pagiging positibo? Ito ang umaasa sa kabila ng lahat. Ito ay pag-asa laban sa pag-asa. Pag-asa mo laban sa inaasahan ng nakararami. Ito ang paniniwala na hindi lahat ay natuldukan na. Ito ang nakakakita ng tarangkahang bukas pa. Ito ang nakatanaw sa malayo at may naaaninag na sikat ng bukang-liwayway. Ito ang may paninindigang mukha mang bulag, ay namamayaning mainam sa katauhan. Ito ay di natitinag, di natitibag, di nasusupil. Ito ang patuloy na nagbibigay-lakas sa taong pagal man ay walang tigil, sapagkat ang taong naniniwala(at nararapat nga na maniwala) ay may dahilan upang magpatuloy. Ang pagiging positibo ay di nangangahulugang pagiging bulag sa katotohanan, na nalulunod lamang sa sariling sapantaha, kundi ang pagtingin sa higit na magandang panig ng usapin, sa mga magagandang maaari pang mangyari sa kabila ng anuman. Ang pagiging positibo ay hindi lamang paniniwala, sapagkat ang paniniwala ay baog kung walang katuwang na pagkilos. Ito rin ay pagkilos nang naaayon sa paniniwalang ang mga bagay-bagay ay may igaganda pa. Sa bawat hakbang na isinasaisip ang pagiging positibo ang taong ito ay tinutupad ang sariling itinakda; siya ang panginoon ng kaniyang sariling tadhana. Ang positibo ay ang taong ito.

Ito ang pagiging positibo. Ito ang kung ano ako ngayon.

CURRENT LSS 3

2007-04-07T17:10:00.000+08:00

IMITAION OF LIFE
REM

Charades, pop skill
Water hyacinth, named by a poet.
Imitation of life
Like a koi in a frozen pond
Like a goldfish in a bowl
I dont want to hear you cry

Thats sugarcane that tasted good
Thats cinnamon thats hollywood
Cmon cmon no one can see you try

You want the greatest thing
The greatest thing since bread came sliced.
Youve got it all, youve got it sized.
Like a friday fashion show teenager
Freezing in the corner
Trying to look like you dont try

Thats sugarcane that tasted good.
Thats cinnamon thats hollywood
Cmon cmon no one can see you try

No one can see you cry

Thats sugarcane that tasted good
Thats freezing rain thats what you could
Cmon cmon no one can see you cry

This sugarcane
This lemonade
This hurricane, Im not afraid.
Cmon cmon no one can see me cry
This lightning storm
This tidal wave
This avalanche, Im not afraid.
Cmon cmon no one can see me cry

Thats sugarcane that tasted good
Thats who you are, thats what you could
Cmon cmon no one can see you cry

Thats sugarcane that tasted good
Thats who you are, thats what you could
Cmon cmon no one can see you cry

SAMUNA TOKORO E IKANAKEREBA NARANAI

2007-04-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

This heat is KILLING me, I swear. I now wanna go someplace cool, like the mall, but then again they are crowded this time of the year. I was told that my hire date was May 7, so that's a long time to kill. Or maybe I'd kill myself rather with Math 55 and Stat 122. This post feels like emo. XD Just joking.

I now wonder about the sunflowers growing at the University Avenue. Because of global warming they will die a few days earlier than they should. Poor sunflowers. May they live their life like the baobabs in the Little Prince's planet.

It's ironic because I just go a few blocks from our main road and it's South China Sea. It's South China sea, but I don't wanna go there. I wish I were someplace cool yet DRY. DRY as an unwatered old spinster who lives in the neighborhood. DRY as the ice deserts near the North Pole. DRY as the humor of Pat Evangelista(if she ever had one). Dry, dry, dry. Someplace dry.

Now I'm off. I'm renewing my NBI clearance on Tuesday. See you on Tuesday! :D

SOLEMN

2007-04-02T09:48:00.000+08:00

The title of this post has nothing to do with the post itself. So just ignore the title.

Since I don't observe the Holy Week, this is gonna be one long and immobile week. Except perhaps doing dishes and all that household chore stuff. And the shows on TV are limited. More time therefore to spend on writing on my journal entries. My NOTEBOOK diaries, that is.

Nag-resign na kase ako sa company ko. Part-time ako dun. Ngayong darating na panibagong school year gusto kong magfull-time. E natanggap na ako sa Convergys sa Ortigas. Start ko sa Mayo. At habang nag-aantay e nabuburo ako sa loob ng bahay at kahit na me produktibo akong ginagawa HINDI KO NAEENJOY ANG KAKARAMPOT NA ORAS SA PAGITAN NG 2ND SEM AT NG SUMMER CLASSES. Wala naman akong natirang pera (napunta lahat sa tuition loan ko ng 2nd sem). At hindi ko trip mag-malling. I'm past that. (Weh...) Pero seryoso, ang hirap mamasyal sa mall na walang pera. Hindi ko trips.

Sigh. And to think that almost all of the 03 peeps are graduating this summer. I'm getting the feeling that I'm being left behind by a lot. Talk about delinquent.

Anyway, ayoko magmukhang insecure. It's so uncool. XD Enough of that. I'll be taking EEE 10 and L Arch 1 this 1st sem. Mga GE subjects lang muna. Para hindi gaanong taxing sa trabaho at sa iba pang mga subjects. Tapos advenced language, 6 units. (Sa maniwala ka o hindi, language classes ang pang-relax ko this past school year.) Tapos 2 subjects ng major, kung anomang program ang malipatan ko. :D meron bang gustong sumama, L Arch 1? :D

SOMETHING FEELS GOOD

2007-03-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

If I were to equate myself to a distribution today, it would be a normal distribution. It has an area of unity underneath the curve, and then with some tweaking i could go from mesokurtic to platykurtic and vice versa.

Nuff of that. I'm taking CWTS 1 this summer, and then Math 55 and Stat 122. ^_^ If I still have the nerve, I'm adding a PE to it. Right on. :D

I still dunno which program I'll be transferring to this coming year, so I'm crossing my fingers.

Till here for now. Still have my Stat 121 exams at one o'clock. :D

[current LSS -- Imitation of Life by REM. very nice song.]

CURRENT LSS 2

2007-03-23T16:15:00.000+08:00

TO DANIELLE ALESSANDRA DE ROSSI

2007-03-23T10:35:00.000+08:00

I have now developed a phobia of misspelling your name. XP Btw, have you ever heard of St. John Chrysostom? XD I dunno if I got it right.

Summers in UP are always hot. I remember three summers ago, back when you were waiting for your fourth year in high school to come. I was at Yakal then, and my first summer in UP was a scorcher. I walked to my first class every morning, and passed by the engineering building cafe on the way. I always had a big fat glass of iced MILO to cool me down. ^_^

Unfortunately I was not used to having MILO in my system. My stomach revolted, and once in my second class (that was Philo 11) i couldn't take it anymore. I went out and made a mess of the NIGS first floor male restroom. So much for recollections. XD I love MILO now, and my system has gotten used to it, after a whole summer of stomachaches. :D

SEASON OF SUNFLOWERS

2007-03-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

It's the season of sunflowers at UP once again, and as one drives up to the main hall of the school (not that i have a car anyway), one can see on both sides and on the center isle the dug-up lines of earth, and onto which sunflower seedlings have been planted. there they will remain until the next school year opens, which is june, and then they die. i dunno why the administration does that; i think it is costly, and if only for that, there are only a few people who enroll in the summer. but they say sunflower seeds are rich in protein, and because of that i wanna take some sunflowers home with me. >:D

it also reminds me that school ends in a few weeks... i'm sad.

CURRENT LSS

2007-03-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

SENIOR CITIZEN
Aggressive Audio

anang akong lolo cge nag pagwapo
bisan wala na cyay bohok sa iyang ulo
ang akong lola kay maglagot nya
kay ang chix pwerte man gyud nyang pilita
cgeg pamada bsan ang ulo gikaingin na
mao kana c lolo
ang akong lolo nga gwapo

chorus:
ang tigulang bisag bako
maningkamot mobarog
motindog aron molabyog...2x

II
karon c lola nasad ang nagpagwapa
namotag polbos lipstick magmaskara
unya c lolo perting nyang lagota
kay c lola magsul-ob man diay'g mobo nga saya
magcge rampa rampa bsan nangorog ng tohod nya
mao kana c lola
ang akong lola ko nga gwapa

repeat chorus..

instrumental:

III
sa dihang naglalis cla
kinsa gyud ang gwapo ug gwapa
niabot c mama nagdalag planggana
gibunalan clang duha

repeat chorus...

to listen to this copy and paste this address. :D
http://rigel2881.multiply.com/music/item/1

GLADSGLADSGLADS!!!

2007-03-09T09:38:00.000+08:00

Yep. that's dusty springfield. how come you know her name? it took me quite a long time to figure that one out. and don't worry, i'm on the lookout for harder sudoku puzzles. hehehe. :D till here for now!

SOME FRUITS FOR YOU

2007-03-07T13:28:00.000+08:00

GENKI NI NARU

2007-03-05T11:47:00.000+08:00

after more than two weeks of awry bowel movement, at last!!! i've become well!!! ^_^ and a bit happier too, of course. before i got my job it was very rare that i caught diseases. as rare as onc every four years. but now the stress of my job has made it once every month. nyak! x_x

till here for now. cheerio! ^_^

NEW YEAR, NEW BLOG

2007-03-04T18:41:00.000+08:00

a new blog for a new year! yep, that seems just right. i figured out having a new blogturf to celebrate a new me is quite appropriate. this one still is in the works, but i'll gradually be improving on this. :D see you in a week's time, everybody! :D